Rebecca Pov

  It was like 5 O'clock in the morning, I woke up and I went to check on Jordan, (the cot was in the room, so I could just pop back to bed if he was asleep still), because I would've normally woken up again like 20-30 minutes before this time, so I just wanted to make sure that he was ok.

  So when I went to Jordan's cot and he wasn't in it, I started to freak out, because he was in there before I even considered going back to bed, no I never considered that Levi had him even though his side of the bed was empty, as I was so fucking tired that I don't think my brain was using its full capacity.

  I ran down the stairs like my life fucking depended on it, (as it felt like it did, as I thought that my baby was missing), I turned into the living room and that was when I saw that Levi was holding Jordan and they were both asleep on the couch, and all the worry and panic and adrenaline just deflated like somebody popped me with a pin, though I accidentally woke Levi up.

  "Shit, you alright Babe?"

  "Yeah I'm fine, was panicking because I thought someone had somehow taken Jordan while I was asleep"

  "Shit, sorry 'bout that, wanted to make sure that he didn't wake you"

  "It's not your fault that my brain's not functioning properly"

  I then sat on the couch with Levi, as I was fucking knackered, (insomnia is a bitch, just saying), but other than the fact that I was worried about 30 seconds previous, it was weirdly peaceful if I'm being honest here, (and I am, so take that as you want to), it was nice that it was the 3 of us together as a family, (even if that wasn't the intention here, it was still nice).

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  "How have you been sleeping Bex?"

  "Better than I used to, but then again that wouldn't be hard, still don't sleep every night but I don't know if I ever will"

  "I don't know how you do it"

  "I mean I don't really have a choice but to deal with it"

  "We could get you a prescription for sle-"

  I hate sleeping tablets with a burning passion, but not because it's a bad thing to have tablets if you need them, (I'm not anti medicine here), but none of them worked for me and being on tablets that don't work for you fucks with your head a bit, if I'm being honest with you here.

  "Sleeping tablets don't work for me, it's been tried with more than one tablet"

  "I guess that answers that one, you do know that you don't have to do any of this by yourself"

  "I do know that Babe, it's just hard breaking habits of a lifetime"

  "I know, come on, let's go back to bed-"

  I was like a little confused as to where this was going, as we had just literally finished talking about how sleeping tablets don't work for me, though my brain spoke for me before I could even think about it.

  "You think that I haven't attempted to out stubborn the insomnia?"

  "No, that would've been a mistake on my part, I'm tired and I sleep better when you're there"

  "We've only moved in together a few weeks ago"

  "Yeah, but we've been living together since we got married, wether it was at your Dad's house or the shop"

  "You're a bloody sap but I love you for it"

  "I love you too"

  So we went back to bed, (and put Jordan back in his cot), and as soon as we were properly in the bed, it was like someone put new batteries into Levi, as he was talking what felt like a mile a minute, though realistically probably not, (but it was a lot considering he was tired and needed way more sleep than I did to be functional).

  "How many kids do you want?"

  "Levi why on earth are you asking me that at half 5 in the morning?"

  "It's a conversation that I think that we should have"

  "I thought that you were tired?"

  "Oh I am, but that doesn't negate the fact that it's a conversation that we need to have"

  "We couldn't have had this conversation before we went back to bed?"

  "You're deflecting"

  "I've not thought about it, so I don't actually have an answer for you Li, plus if I did have a number, which I don't, the universe would make it so that I have 1 more than I would have wanted, do you have a number in mind?"

  "No, but I'm asking you because I'm not the one who's going to give birth"

  "That's pretty reasonable"

  "I like to think I am"