Su San comes back, Dream Awakens

  Yes, who would have thought that on the day of our White family's great disaster, it was actually Jinxiu who held up half the sky for us Whites.

  Mentioning the great disaster of the Bai family, Xiū Niáng couldn't help but redden her eyes again.

  Don't worry, little sister, your brother-in-law will definitely get better.

  Liu stretched out his hand and gently patted Xiuniang's shoulder, comforting her softly.

  The girl's eyes were brimming with tears at this moment, and the sadness seemed to be searching for an outlet. She hurriedly hugged Qing Ge tightly in her arms. It seemed that only by doing so could she alleviate the helplessness and sorrow in her heart.

  It's late, I'm going back to my room.

  The girl lowered her head and whispered a few words, then hugged Qing Ge and turned back into the room.

  Liu watched from behind, and could only let out a soft sigh. The matter of Bai Qi and Bai An was undoubtedly a wound in the hearts of the Bai family, one that would require a long time to slowly heal.

  Xiu Niang carried Qing Ge back to the room, but unexpectedly found that Bai An was not lying on the bed. Instead, he was leaning against the headboard with a dazed expression.

  Husband...

  The girl's voice was hoarse with emotion, whispering softly in Bai An's ear.

  Bai An suddenly came back to his senses, turned his head and looked at Xiū Niáng. Looking at the woman in front of him with a gentle face and elegant demeanor, he felt a pang in his heart.

  Xiu Niang's slightly red eyes had undoubtedly become a fine and sharp needle, piercing deeply into his heart. He spoke hoarsely, Xiu Niang, I owe you an apology.

  Bai An looked at Xiuniang's beautiful appearance and suddenly felt his throat dry, almost unable to speak.

  Xiūniáng's family was not wealthy, but her parents and brothers all doted on her. Moreover, Xiūniáng's temperament and appearance were among the best in the surrounding villages. When Xiūniáng came of age for marriage, suitors flocked to her doorstep, almost breaking down the doorframe. However, Xiūniáng had set her eyes on Bái ān, a somewhat serious man with a tall and straight figure like a pine tree.

  After marriage, the couple's feelings for each other remained good. Even though they were often apart due to Bai An's studies, Xiū Niáng never complained and worked hard at the Bai household.

  He had always known that Bai An was in his heart, and he also understood the deep meaning of Xiū Niáng's feelings towards him. He had always thought about studying hard, one day to make a name for himself, and give Xiū Niáng, the children, and the Bai family a better life. Only, this wish had not yet taken shape, when it was already strangled in its infancy.

  Xiu Niang heard Bai An's words, her heart ached, and the tears she had been holding back for so long finally burst out. She hugged Qing Ge tightly and walked quickly to the bedside. With tears in her eyes, she sat on the bed, facing Bai An, and almost cried out: What I care about has never been a life of wealth and luxury, but rather that you and Qing Ge can live in peace and safety, which is already enough for me. Husband, whether you can make a name for yourself, whether you can pass the imperial examination with high honors, these have never been the most important things to me. The most important thing has always been just you and Qing Ge being well.

  When Xiumei heard these heartfelt words, even Bai An, a somewhat serious man, couldn't help but be deeply moved. Xiumei, I've been working hard, studying diligently at the academy, regardless of the harsh weather, I never felt it was a burden. Because in my heart, I have a wish, hoping that one day my wife and children, my family can live their best lives. So, no matter how many hardships I face, I'm not afraid. But this time, the hardship has almost crushed all my hopes, I don't know what else I can do. I really don't know, what else can I provide for you and Qingge?

  Bai An's eyes were also filled with tears, as the saying goes, "A man has tears but does not easily shed them, only when he is deeply hurt." At this moment, Bai An felt that all the physical pain was nothing compared to the weakness in his heart. He knew he was crippled, and perhaps for the rest of his life, he would never be able to stand up again. For the rest of his life, he would have to spend it in bed. What was the point of living like this? Was it to deepen the pain of Xiū Niáng and Qīng Gē, or to burden the White family?

  Normally strong like a cypress tree, Bai An was now on the verge of collapse in both heart and will due to the fact that he was almost crippled.

  The gentle and quiet wife, although calm in nature, was also an extremely strong woman at heart. However, at this moment, upon hearing her beloved husband's desperate words that had drained the color from his life, she couldn't help but let out a sorrowful cry. She could be strong because she had her loving husband and son. But at this moment, seeing her husband like this, all her strength crumbled instantly, as if it had vanished into thin air.

  When it happened, the two had never talked about it because they were afraid that once they spoke, they would reveal their true emotions and collapse. So, Bai An had been lying in bed since he came back, not speaking a word. And Xiu Niang was silently waiting by his side, pretending to be happy in front of others. But at this moment, after all the words were spoken, they still had to face these indelible facts. Perhaps, from the beginning, they were just deceiving themselves.

  The green melon in Xiuniang's arms also got infected and suddenly burst into loud wails.

  Xiu Niang and Bai An gazed at each other with tears in their eyes, and a sorrowful atmosphere instantly filled the entire room.

  An Yan and Bai Ping were originally quietly making medicine outside when they suddenly heard a shocking cry.

  Why is Brother Qing crying?

  An Yan's hands paused in their movement as he stared at the direction of Bai An and Xiū Niáng's room in surprise.

  It's also strange that Bai Ping is calm in her heart. Although Qing Ge is still young, she is very sensible and rarely cries like this.

  Xiao Pang got up from her small body, her little face full of anxiety, what's wrong with Qing Ge, why is she crying so sadly?

  At this time, An Yan also felt that something was wrong. Usually when Qing Ge cried, Xiu Niang would immediately comfort her. But at this moment, Qing Ge's crying not only didn't stop, but instead became louder and more intense, involuntarily brewing a sad and desperate atmosphere.

  Let's go and take a look.

  An Yan also got up and followed, holding Xiao Pang's hand as they went over.

  But Bai Ping was sitting quietly in his original position, continuing the movement of his hands. Perhaps due to the intuition between brothers, at this moment he seemed to have understood what had happened inside. Bai Ping's face hidden under the night color was vague and obscure, with an unspeakable desolation and loneliness. As the eldest son of the Bai family, the heavy burden on him hardly allowed him to relax even a little bit.

  An Yan arrived at Bai An's room and found that the door was not closed. No wonder Qing Ge's crying voice was so clear.

  She gently pushed open the door of the room and heard Bai An's desperate tone inside, as if it were an autumn wind blowing on a rootless duckweed.

  Xiu Niang, I'm now a useless person, already of no use...

  I can no longer bring happiness to you and Qing Ge, I have nothing left...

  I've lost everything...

  ……

  An Yan had always thought that her second brother-in-law was a strong and introverted man, just like a pine tree in the cold wind. No matter how big the storm was, he would still stand tall. But at this moment, she finally discovered that Bai An also had his own weakness. When he encountered irresistible hardships, he would also have reasons to give up. Just like now, when he thought he couldn't get back up again, he would also have moments of collapse.

  She unconsciously clenched her fists, her body lightly leaning against the door beside him, with a lingering sense of melancholy and resentment in her eyes that refused to dissipate.

  Those distant memories, as if they had finally found an outlet, suddenly swarmed in and quietly shattered all her tranquility.

  An Yan, you must cure him before you can leave this place.

  Hurry up and get treatment, only then will your grandmother have a chance of survival.

  "Time is life, if she can't make it today, then your grandmother won't be able to wait for your treatment either."

  ……

  Grandma...

  It's too late after all...

  What is the purpose of this medical skill I possess?

  I saved others but couldn't save the one I loved most, what's the point of my medical skills?

  Grandma, it was you who taught me how to identify herbs with your own hands, but in the end, you exhausted your life in bitter waiting.

  My medical skills...are ultimately just a distant joke...

  Grandma, this green ribbon was given to me by you on my sixth birthday. At that time, you personally tied my hair and tied this green ribbon for me. And you told me that as long as this green ribbon is with me, it's like grandma is always with Yanyan. Now, I will tie this green ribbon around my wrist, and from now on, I will no longer treat anyone except for blood relatives.

  A doctor's benevolent heart, saving lives and healing wounds, is ultimately just a wound in my own heart that can never be healed.

  ……

  Those profound memories, those diffused white and red hues, rendered a blood-colored entanglement in An Yan's eyes.

  Flesh and blood...

  My persistence...

  She gazed down at the pale blue ribbon tied around her wrist, feeling that it would be a lifelong shackle that would prevent her from practicing medicine in this strange world again.

  But now this idea flashes in her mind again, and she has a hard time making a choice.

  On one side were the Bai family members who treated her like their own, and on the other was her grandmother who accompanied her through the most important years of her life. Those vows, word for word, sentence by sentence, still echoed clearly in her mind. Those things, one by one, still vivid before her eyes, made it hard for her to extricate herself.

  At this moment, she felt as if she was standing at a crossroads, with the Bian family's concern in front of her and the gentle guidance and companionship of her past grandmother behind her. Her entire body was deeply immersed in memories of the past, unable to extricate herself from the constant ebb and flow.

  The things that have been firmly guarded in one's heart will burst out wildly as soon as a gap is found, and they will surge forth recklessly from the mouth.

  An Yan's hand couldn't help but grasp the door frame, her fingers exerting a deep force, as if she wanted to dig into the door, her finger joints turning white.

  Deep within, the most painful memories kept surfacing, and before her eyes, the Bai family's sorrowful and desperate faces also kept emerging. At this moment, An Xun felt that her entire head was filled to the brim with emotions of mutual confrontation. The feeling of being filled to the brim made her almost want to scream and flee.

  The little fatty who was holding An Yan's hand also sensed something was wrong and anxiously called out, "Auntie, what's wrong?"

  An Wen heard Pang Ya's words of concern, wanting to turn around and comfort Xiao Ya, but found that her consciousness was a bit fuzzy, with a bloody haze in front of her eyes. Suddenly, a strong dizziness attacked, and she lost all sense of awareness.

  At the last moment, An Xuan only heard Pang Ya's cry of surprise with a sob. And in the instant she fell into darkness, those strong arms caught her soft body.

  From now on, except for those people before, I will no longer diagnose and treat anyone else...

  This green ribbon represents a memory that makes me deeply remember the pale and powerless desire that cannot be obtained.

  From now on, I will never untie this green silk belt and I will no longer practice medicine...

  ……

  The world is so big, apart from the medical skills I love, I can have many more things.

  The world is cold and warm, human feelings are cold and warm, only oneself knows forever. A long journey of self-exile, I learned to let go, but never learned to be at ease.

  Grandma, are you doing well on the other side of heaven?

  She felt as if she had fallen into an endless sea of memories, the most beautiful and the most cruel, all sorts. It was as if she had done a very long dream, in which she seemed to be a guest from another world, with a pair of elegant eyes that saw through her whole life. She gained a deeper understanding of the joys and sorrows of life.

  I solemnly pledge to dedicate myself to serving humanity.

  I will give my teachers the respect and gratitude they deserve.

  I will practice medicine with integrity and dignity.

  The health of my patient should be my first consideration;

  I will respect the secrets entrusted to me.

  I will exert my utmost efforts to uphold the honor and noble traditions of the medical profession.

  ……

  A middle-aged woman with a gentle face and serious expression holds a medical book in her hand, looking at the young girl in front of her with kind eyes, listening to her recite the Hippocratic Oath clearly.

  The little girl was only five or six years old, still wearing pigtails, with big eyes full of confusion.

  The middle-aged woman looked at the little girl with eyes full of love and hope, wishing that her life's legacy could be passed on to the little girl.

  Remember, for your whole life, remember the responsibilities and obligations of being a doctor. Don't feel resentful, one day you will be proud of it, happy with it. Looking at the health and life created by your own hands, you will be proud of it. You will find that your life has infinite possibilities and value.

  Grandma, isn't this what others often refer to as helping others is joyful?

  Yes, helping others is a joy. When you truly understand the meaning of life one day, you will understand the true meaning of helping others and find joy in it. Words, Grandma may not be able to accompany you for a lifetime, but Grandma hopes that medical skills can accompany you for a lifetime. Benevolent heart and benevolent technique, what's important is that benevolent heart. In life, there are many hardships and difficulties that we cannot change, but we can change ourselves, making progress to overcome those adverse factors. However, Words, you must remember, no matter what happens, don't change your persistence and original intention. If one day, you change your persistence in life because of others' mistakes and the hardships of life, then no matter what reason, Grandma will not forgive.

  Grandma...

  The little girl looked bewildered, watching her grandmother's serious face and calling out timidly from the side.

  The woman saw the little girl's tender face, and those eyes that seemed to be the brightest stars in the sky. The expression in her eyes was as soft as clouds that had been kneaded into a fluffy shape. In an instant, it flowed like water. She stretched out her hand and hugged the little girl into her arms, resting her chin on the little girl's head.

  You know, you were born by grandma. At the moment I saw you, grandma felt that this was the most beautiful gift given to grandma by heaven. There has never been a moment that makes grandma thank life so much and be so moved. At that moment, grandma thought, grandma wants to spend her whole life loving and taking care of my little angel.

  The little girl's confused eyes had a puzzled look, but she simply relied on her deeper feelings and snuggled deeper into the woman's embrace.

  You must be strong, no matter what happens, you have to learn to be strong. Remember, grandma will always be behind you to support you.

  My dear little angel, Grandma will always love you.

  ……

  Su San returned to Green Bamboo Village in a hurry after settling everything in Qin Du. As soon as he entered the house, he saw his wife's frail body swaying unsteadily. His actions preceded his thoughts, and he quickly caught hold of that petite figure who had been troubling him day and night.

  As soon as I held it in my hand, I was surprised to find that the weight of this body on my arm was light and airy, with a floating weight, like a thin willow catkin in the wind.

  He hastily put her on the bed and rushed out to call a doctor. The doctor eventually only gave a diagnosis of overthinking, followed by a day and night of coma.

  Su San didn't sleep for a whole day and night, she just sat quietly on the edge of the bed, intently staring at the small woman lying with her eyes closed.

  On the day and night she fell into a coma, he also knew everything that had happened to the Bai family in recent days. He was furious at the despicable behavior of those shameless people, and his heart ached for the small woman's endurance and sacrifice. His broad and thick hands reached into the quilt, found the small woman's weak and boneless small hand, and unconsciously grasped it tightly. It seemed that as long as he did so, he could keep her by his side.

  Her eyebrows and eyes were still elegant and natural, but the pair of eyes that looked like lake water at this moment were tightly closed. At this moment, he wanted to take another look at those serene and elegant eyes that could make people deeply infatuated. The shock and heartache of learning the truth made him suddenly realize the thoughts hidden deep in his heart. It turned out that she had already occupied a very important position in his heart. She made him think day and night, she made him worry and miss her, she made him unable to calm down.

  He had wandered aimlessly and been at a loss, but only now did he finally see clearly his own heart's intention. This little woman was his wife's little woman, and had already unknowingly walked into her heart.

  His thick and large hands tightened again, and a sense of satisfaction as a husband suddenly arose in his heart.

  He never knew that one day he would be flustered and disconcerted because of a woman, with only cold weapons and military formations in his mind.

  The little woman on the bed seemed to have dreamed of something at this moment, and her eyebrows were deeply furrowed, and the corners of her mouth were also tightly pursed.

  Su San Yi anxiously called out from one side: Wake up? Jin Xiu, Jin Xiu...

  But the gentle words on the bed had not awakened, only fell into endless dreams, and she heard her grandmother's teachings again. Those distant memories, at this moment, were clearly imprinted in her mind like a tide. It turned out that her grandmother had said so many words to her before. She never knew that she would be her grandmother's most beautiful angel.

  Grandma, I was wrong, really wrong. Choosing to give up medicine, in the end, is because of my own cowardice. Because I couldn't accept the fact that you're gone, because I couldn't accept this fact, so I used this way to give myself an excuse for escape. Then using this excuse, I created a shell for myself, stubbornly staying inside. It seems like this way, I can temporarily forget this memory that's as red as blood.

  Grandma, I was wrong, I really was wrong...

  The gentle words left two lines of clear tears in her eyes, and her eyebrows also relaxed and opened at this moment. The original entanglement and gloom also quietly dispersed, revealing the most relieved expression.

  What?

  Su San, due to his martial arts training, had extremely keen hearing, but he only faintly heard the soft woman on the bed mutter a sentence. Faintly, it seemed like he only caught the two words "what's wrong", and the rest was because her voice was too soft, so he didn't hear clearly. He leaned in suspiciously, bringing his head close to An Yan's lips.

  She slowly opened her eyes, looking at the ancient and fragrant room, gazing at the dim yellow candlelight, feeling as if she had been reborn. At this moment, she was not confused, nor stubborn, nor trapped in a dead end. She understood Grandma's expectations of her, and Grandma's wishes.

  Life is always difficult to avoid hardships, grandma told her that she must work hard to make progress and overcome them. Instead of being weak and changing one's persistence, this is a sign of weakness.

  Grandma, I understand. From now on, I will never be weak again. I will bravely move forward, following in your footsteps all the way. Even if I'm alone, I will still walk on strongly.

  The words in her heart were silently speaking, and as the sentence fell, the tears in her eyes suddenly burst out like a flood. At this moment, she finally accepted the fact that her grandmother had left her forever. She also finally accepted her own failure, but she believed that although her grandmother had left her, the love would always remain with her. Her grandmother had said that no matter where or when, she would always stand behind her, silently supporting her.

  Su Sansan approached An Yan and saw that she was crying hard, suddenly becoming somewhat at a loss.

  What's wrong? Why are you crying? Is something uncomfortable?

  Has anyone ever said that when crying, in the heart is extremely eager for a shoulder.

  At this moment, An Yan was like that, she suddenly got up and hugged Su San's broad chest, bursting into loud sobs.

  An Yan was always calm and composed, no matter what happened, she had a serene expression on her face with a faint smile. Except for the day when her grandmother passed away, An Yan never lost control like that again.

  At this moment, she just wants to cry well, and let out all the grievances and depression in her heart. So, with tears in her eyes, she didn't even see clearly who she was hugging. She just wanted to indulge herself well once, and vent out all the sadness in her heart.

  Su San was stunned in an instant, he had always thought that a woman's tears were weak and unnecessary. He used to hate seeing women cry the most, never thinking that one day he would succumb and fall under a woman's tears. At this moment, looking at An Yan who cried with a broken heart, he only felt that his cold and hard heart was crushed, hurting in a way that didn't seem right.

  Don't cry anymore, you'll become ugly if you continue crying.

  Su San really doesn't know how to coax people, when he held his big brother's son before, the child was so scared that he didn't dare cry. Therefore, it can be said that he really has no experience in coaxing people.

  At this moment, Su San was at a loss, his hands didn't know where to put them. He could only clumsily say the most comforting words he could think of, even though these words sounded like flies buzzing in An Yan's ears.

  It's really annoying, An Yan thought that at this moment she didn't want to think about anything else, just wanting to have a good cry. And beside her, there was still a nagging voice, she continued to cry loudly while stretching out her hand to block the annoying sound.

  Su San was caught off guard, and his cool lips were covered by a soft small hand.

  Hmmm...

  It was a feeling as if he had touched soft cotton, and Su San felt his heartbeat become irregular.

  His pair of ink-black eyes suddenly widened, uncontrollably staring at the soft small hands covering his mouth, with a deep tremble in his eyes.

  An Yan was completely unaware of it and just felt that the annoying voice by her ear had finally stopped, so she continued with her loud crying.

  After a while, when the crying gradually subsided, An Yan's emotions also slowly calmed down. She stopped her own crying and felt a sense of clarity in her heart, as if those dark clouds and sorrows had all gone away with the tears.

  She didn't realize until now that she was in someone's arms. As soon as she noticed this, she felt puzzled and suddenly lifted her head up.

  Four eyes met, like black pupils full of astonishment, and the emerald lake water was full of mystery.

  The man in front of me seems somewhat familiar?

  At this moment, her mind was a complete blank, and she felt a sense of temporary paralysis. For a moment, she couldn't even remember who the man in front of her was, only that he looked incredibly familiar.

  Who are you? Do we know each other?

  Su San's heart was filled with expectation and joy, eagerly awaiting the little woman's response. Especially after the intense crying fit just now, he felt that things between them should be very different.

  It was all just a wishful thinking that immediately collapsed after hearing those words.

  Su San felt his forehead throbbing with rage, and his face was almost bursting.

  An Yan saw Su San's frightening appearance and was momentarily bewildered. What's going on, wasn't it just curiosity about who he was, why so excited?

  At this time, An Yan's thoughts slowly returned, and he finally remembered who the man in front of him was.

  Isn't this Su San? The husband of her own body!

  But isn't he a runaway who abandoned himself? How did he end up here now?

  Tang Jinxiu, you actually don't even recognize your own husband?

  Su San's eyes widened in anger, his appearance looking quite menacing. If anyone else had come over, they would have been scared off for sure. But An Yan looked at Su San with this expression and didn't feel any fear, instead a thread of resentment was stirred up in her heart.

  Husband?

  An Yan's voice was low and husky as she gritted her teeth, her eyebrows raised slightly, and the two words were imbued with profound meaning.

  Su San did not notice the unique meaning in An Yan's words, but only felt that the two words "husband" sounded exceptionally pleasant and moving when spoken from her mouth, causing his heart to involuntarily flutter. Because of this slight flutter, his thoughts became somewhat uncontrollable.

  Yes, I am your husband and also your heaven.

  Su San's intention was to express that he is someone she can rely on, who can hold up the sky for her. However, as a big man, he never says sweet nothings to girls, so his words came out with an inherent male chauvinism.

  As soon as she heard this, her eyebrows shot up. She was a person who didn't have much likes or dislikes in life, but what she liked the most was medicine, and what she disliked the most was male chauvinism. Unfortunately, Su San just happened to possess the latter trait that she detested.

  I wasn't asking a question just now!

  An said in a louder tone, with a hint of provocation in her eyes. Su San, on the other hand, was puzzled by An's previous words and looked at her with questioning eyes, waiting for an explanation.

  At a glance at his appearance, a hint of smile flashed in her eyes, and then she said in a low voice: Uncle, we are not very suitable.

  What did you call me?

  Su San's eyes widened in shock, his face filled with an expression of utter disbelief. What had this little woman just called him?

  Uncle? Is he really that old?

  An Yan felt that Su San's words were too lacking in depth. Alright, An Yan thought she had gone overboard. Her age was equivalent to Su San's in modern times, and calling him "uncle" was indeed excessive. But who let Su San have such a chauvinistic attitude, offending her deepest taboo, so naturally she would not hesitate to strike back at him.

  Then, An Yan raised his eyes and stared at Su San's glaring eyes.

  I'm calling you uncle, what's wrong with that?

  Su San glared at her, his eyes as black as ink staring fiercely at the small woman in front of him. But the small woman opposite him was unmoved, also opening a pair of eyes to stare back at him, not fearing the cold air he emitted.

  On one side, eyes were cold and sharp as a knife edge, on the other side, eyes were also piercing like a sword. Both sides refused to yield, clashing with each other, gunpowder filled the air.

  Su San was so angry, just now this little woman was still crying uncontrollably in his arms. In the blink of an eye, she turned her face and didn't recognize him, actually calling him "Uncle". Was he really that old? Really?

  An keenly sensed the chill in the air around her, and for some reason, she felt a little uneasy. She thought of this man's usual icy expression, but it turned out he also had times when he was irritated, and the reason was somewhat dramatic - all because of being called "uncle".

  You should call me husband.

  Su San was gritting his teeth as he spoke, his sharp eyes staring at the little woman in front of him who seemed to be fearless, his heart full of helplessness.